sleepless days n nights...

first thought it was love....but later found out the main reason...the reason is the extensive schedule of classes all the time!!!!!

Exploring the other half of me...

Have you anytime in your life felt a conflict raging inside you telling you that whatever you're doing is not for your own sake but for someone else's? That you always put up a good show of your personality but you alone know what you actually are? I have always believed that a person has two sides to his nature, one that the world knows and the one version that he has of himself . But, by doing this you're not deceiving anyone, you're just waiting patiently for someone to come into your life and prod your real feelings, so that you can confide anything in that person without hiding anything, without feeling guilty or ashamed...Not everyone can meet such a person in their lives... and sometimes even after getting to know such a person, you may not trust him and still be trapped in the cage of your own inner turmoil. I've always been such a person, for I find it a little difficult perhaps, in giving way to all of my emotions...because I always have the ridiculous idea that I'm boring that person with my stupid talk and he doesn't pay attention to any of it. So why should I waste my own time along with that person's? I may listen patiently to anything anyone wants to tell me, but when it comes to the other way round, I back off.. It may be happening with a lot of people who don't yet accept this... But then later I've also found that when I most want to talk to someone about anything, he or she isn't available...isn't it an irony? Then you're left to dwell on your thoughts and cant talk to anyone which increases your misery. So an advice to people like me ( of course this is also applicable to me!) that we should always say what we're feeling, we should never try to hide or shy away from our emotions, because one day we'll regret it and think that our words were left unsaid.. Believe me, its the most saddest thing in the world...and after all what would one get in loneliness and solitude? So, open your hearts out to the ones close to you and don't ever disappoint them!